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today I had my first official class... It was okay! I'm kind of anxious because I was hoping for practical work and am met with THEORY but I'm still excited to learn.. I just hope I can academic write well ! I WASN'T SICK TODAY EITHER !! often times when I go out to the city, my post-nasal drip gets the better of me and I'm out for the rest of the night. I'm certainly tired but !! my stomach feels fine! I knew I could work around it, but every bit of proof that I can find gives me hope for the future that I can functionally hold a professional job one day, y'know? I'm currently a full time carer, so I'm part-time studying, and I think that schedule really works out for my situation.... oh my god all the ladies at my op shop when I tell them I'm on a carer pension are like "deary me, you're so young!" but twice so far the people at my uni reacted with a "GET THAT COINN" so, ! certainly interesting! I'm just a guy who works from home !

and omg... being able to say i'm excited to learn is wild in itself! apart of me feels like i don't deserve to be excited for it? Like, i know it's normal to be!!! and even good to be!! But I'm not good at expressing myself in person and usually bad things happen when I try and look forward to things, so mostly I just say im determined to be here !!!!! and that kind of meets somewhere in the middle. I need a win and im determined to work for it GHGKH

umm !! I have, a follow up doctor appointment tomorrow, so hopefully i get the clear on that and I don't have to make yet another, follow up. And then the day after another class, and then I'm free for the week ^w^ yay !