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to draw the dipshit and redson stuck in the mausoleum saw trap together art piece? comic? animation. comic. illustration

i somehow made them a coconut jubjub for the avatar get but i always envisioned misdemeanour as a snot aisha so the fountain dip i got from the faerie festival... i almost feel bad not keeping the jubjub out of value i suppose but my heart is so happy for snot aisha

HOWEVER !! day two of faerie festival and.. i have another fountain dip. dear god what do i do. does anyone want a buzz of any colour i still need the buzz fountain avatar so i dont mind gifting one??

okay so for my entire life I've been a silly little self inserter, right? my lego behaviour is just the latest drownage that ended up lasting longer than most (goddd its been at least 2 years now) but there's one thats older.. thats been here for like 10 years that i think abt on and off a lot still. specifically the point of bringing this up is, I needed his ass in america for lore reasons so i made him an international uni student. He, was studying the same thing I am now.

Honestly you can't have a character that long without it changing drastically throughout your life, (for reference that's my entire teenhood and then + some years, so good golly gee did he go through the wringer) but even saying that for one reason or another I don't really know when details of his current situation got blocked in. He just sorta morpths sometimes ! but good god has this current version of him been set in stone long before i even decided to commit to studying.

Dipshit, as a funny little lad, was originally started as a vent oc. He's kind of changed himself into a full character, but he really was just my way of processing things by playing dolls with the stuff I was facing or otherwise. Overall atm he still sort of plays that role but a lot of his things is me paying respect to his origins more than me freaking out about life.

This other guy however? that thing is pure escapism. If dipshit couldn't handle the stress of having a job, this dude is studying full time, helping with misadventures and picking up odd shifts. he's still really tired and stuff, but I guess my peak power fantasy is being a guy who can do stuff capably and be relied on by others GKHHG so.. my big question was always, "If this guy is escapism, will I have to change his situation to not overlap with what will probably become stress in my own life, or is this going to be like when I took a driving lesson and my driving dreams suddenly got a weird sense of realistic detail"

And at this moment.... I don't know! I want to say he's a bit of the latter at the moment admittedly, but nothing has properly happened yet. If this turns stressful will dipshit take his job? if this turns stressful will i need to give him something else to do to keep his visa GKHG

today I had my first official class... It was okay! I'm kind of anxious because I was hoping for practical work and am met with THEORY but I'm still excited to learn.. I just hope I can academic write well ! I WASN'T SICK TODAY EITHER !! often times when I go out to the city, my post-nasal drip gets the better of me and I'm out for the rest of the night. I'm certainly tired but !! my stomach feels fine! I knew I could work around it, but every bit of proof that I can find gives me hope for the future that I can functionally hold a professional job one day, y'know? I'm currently a full time carer, so I'm part-time studying, and I think that schedule really works out for my situation.... oh my god all the ladies at my op shop when I tell them I'm on a carer pension are like "deary me, you're so young!" but twice so far the people at my uni reacted with a "GET THAT COINN" so, ! certainly interesting! I'm just a guy who works from home !

and omg... being able to say i'm excited to learn is wild in itself! apart of me feels like i don't deserve to be excited for it? Like, i know it's normal to be!!! and even good to be!! But I'm not good at expressing myself in person and usually bad things happen when I try and look forward to things, so mostly I just say im determined to be here !!!!! and that kind of meets somewhere in the middle. I need a win and im determined to work for it GHGKH

umm !! I have, a follow up doctor appointment tomorrow, so hopefully i get the clear on that and I don't have to make yet another, follow up. And then the day after another class, and then I'm free for the week ^w^ yay !

I’m not sure how obvious it is so I was gonna give exposition for dipshit time yayy his name isn’t actually dipshit. he SHOULD have a cannonical name in theory but from a mixture of him being trans and having identity issues the concept of having any name just sort of made him dysphoric as a whole so I never made one. every character has their own nickname for him instead C: DBK calls him Stray because he will not get out of his goddamn house. Mei calls him Killjoy because they’re both emo pun and also because she would call his attitude out. etc etc

And by this logic, his character name SHOULD probably be whatever Red calls him; but I like to think that even though Red is usually really insistent on singular nicknames, whether due to his stand-offness or bc he probably never cared to learn the names of others and then got stuck in that distance for too long, dipshit being there pre-red son redemption arc means there’s a LOT of varying degrees of a) how familiar they are with each other and b) red son slowly calming down as a person over time. So there's a lot!!! of nicknames !!! that red goes through for him depending on those two factors. just depending on how close they are in the timeline, really.

which is to say, Dipshit is actively just his name from an author perspective. Because "that bastard" was too long, funnily enough. Though characters probably sneak it in bc he can kind of be one sometimes... yay !!!

dipshit has been patiently waiting for red to finish his evil scheme speech

she's so silley and funny and two seconds away from killing me i lov her